October 29, 2003

The world around Lexx seemed to slowly fade as he withdrew. 'I refuse to live as a captured player.' And a voice hissed from the oncoming darkness. 'But you will because they will keep you alive.' It was true. If Lexx were captured, he would be kept alive by whomever caught him. 'I would just give up.' Lexx spoke to himself stubbornly. He wasn't going to give the darkness room to edge in. It was beginning to scare Lexx. It was there and it seemed to have a mind of its own. It wasn't just a voice in the back of his thoughts. It had a mind of its own. 'You can't,' And it took form again, a mirror image of Lexx within his mind's eye. 'Even then, your hope will chain you to life. You are only torturing yourself. Is there any real reason for you to live? Any? Useless. Scum. Nobody needs you, you know that. Let go,' It spoke with a cold, demeaning tone, clearly thinking nothing of Lexx. Let go? It sounded tempting. Just give up and let it take over. It was getting stronger. It might be stronger than Lexx was and maybe,… giving up would relieve him of all the pressure. But, he couldn't give up. If he did, he might never be able to reclaim himself and then what? Lexx sighed wistfully, brightening and smiling faintly to himself at the remembrance of a warm soft touch. 'She asked me for a kiss.' Lexx uttered. 'Many have! That is nothing special! You delude yourself with false- ' Lexx's reflection began to snap back.

4 thoughts on “October 29, 2003”

Refugnic

10/02/2012, 4:07 am

Ah, the darkness within…if nothing else, this truly proves that he is human. For humans, like no other species on earth, are caught between light and darkness, hope and despair, their own perception of right and wrong…where ‘right’ most often is the hard path to go.

Groggy1
02/21/2016, 2:53 am
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Not to disagree BUT…no other species on earth CARES ONE WHIT about good or evil. That’s a worry for only intelligent creatures. For the rest, it’s live or die, fight or flight, feast or famine. Instinct only.