“It doesn’t matter if Lexx wins or loses.” Chel sighed, a tear sliding down her cheek. “Someone else is going to make decisions for him. If he wins, he’s going to be taken away from here whether he wants to go or not.” She let the words spill out, glad she could tell someone about what was going on who really did have Lexx’s best interests at heart. “I told them that wasn’t what Lexx wanted, but they seem set on it. I don’t know if I’m more upset by that or the thought of Lexx leaving.”
On one hand, Lexx leaving would probably be best for him, but that should be his choice and the injustice of it made Chel mad. She was mad because she knew at this point, she was helpless to do anything other than vocally protest. Everything was so complicated when it came to Lexx and it rolled all over her feelings.
“Why would it matter which upsets you more?” Serenity bumped Chel’s head with her muzzle, breaking out of her thoughts. Chel sighed and averted her eyes nervously.
“Because I don’t want to be selfish,” admitted Chel. “I want Lexx to stay. I know he wants to remain on Earth.” She wanted him to stay. Just thinking about it made her throat tight and heart twinge. In such a short time, she had truly grown to love him. Even if it never went further, she wanted to know him better and spend time with him in a normal, somewhat wishful thinking life. She could see them doing the regular things couples do; going on dates, watching movies, getting to know her family. At the same time, those thoughts were a complete fantasy.