"I know how I feel, Chel-" Lexx interrupted quickly. He sensed that this conversation was about to go in a direction he didn't want it to.
"Feelings aren't enough. I have them too." Chel admitted slowly. It was time for an open and honest conversation again. She didn't particularly want to do it either, but there were things that weighed heavily on her emotions. "I really like you, Lexx."
Lexx smiled slightly - until Chel continued. "But I know there are things that you haven't told me. I really don't expect you to tell me everything, Lexx, but -"
"What does the past really matter, Chel, all I can give is how I feel-" Lexx interrupted a second time. His voice was rushed and tinged with an edge of worry. What did Chel want? He knew quite a few things women liked, none of which Chel would probably approve of. He had run up against a brick wall in where to go with her. It was frustrating.
"Because - It can change with time, Lexx." Chel did not notice Lexx's sudden shift in emotions. A scowl deepened across his face with each word she spoke as the frustration boiled into a slowly building anger of confusion. "I'm not one of those people who follows every single 'feeling' I have."
"It can be dangerous."
"Chel-" Lexx tried to interrupt again.
"As we both know." Chel continued speaking, wanting to get it all out as quickly as possible. She didn't want to be having this conversation anymore than Lexx did, but his guarded nature was still lingering and there were some things he didn't seem to like to talk about. His past. His family. What Lexx thought about how life was to be truly lived.
It was odd with Lexx. He spoke like he was going to live alone in the future, yet persisted in showing affection toward Chel. She was afraid he wanted something that she wasn't willing to give and the longer it went on, the more it was going to hurt both of them. It was worrying. It wouldn't work, even as friends. But Chel still held onto another line of thought, that Lexx needed time to tell her things. Time he was not giving himself.
i like how you keep taking their relationship in unexpected directions :3 most people would have them all over each other by now but you make it seem like it is more of a real situation than a fairy tail…. though i really want to slap chel right now for upsetting lexx >>
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i like how you keep taking their relationship in unexpected directions :3 most people would have them all over each other by now but you make it seem like it is more of a real situation than a fairy tail…. though i really want to slap chel right now for upsetting lexx >>